|Beautiful blue winter skies and majestic old beech tree|
I have to confess to feeling a little overwhelmed by things at the moment. I know it will be just a phase and some of it is completely self inflicted but I guess at times life just gets like this.
It is a combination of things I think. John’s job is really uncertain at the moment, it has been really for the last year, but it is all coming to a head in the next few weeks and, while it could all work out well, there is a chance things will go very pear shaped – but at least by the end of March we will actually know and then also be able to plan knowing what we are going to have to deal with.
|A neighbouring field – horse jumps are not just for horses!|
And Katie still thinks night-time should involve milk feeds which I can completely understand but I would rather she showed signs of dropping at least one of them. Tiredness really doesn’t help when it comes to keeping things in perspective! Frustratingly, also, in the last few days she has forgotten how to sleep during the day – which means she is getting very unhappy as she really needs a couple of good sleeps………and I hate to see her so miserable, especially when I know what the solution is (i.e. go to sleep) but she doesn’t.
|Do the horses realise they are jumping over dinosaurs?!|
I have, probably stupidly, given myself quite a lot of sewing to finish off in the next few weeks. It is sewing that I really want to do, and have to now as I don’t have the opportunity to look for alternate things to wear, but I get myself all tied up with knots when I don’t get on as well as I’d like to – and also don’t want it to intrude on spending as much time as possible with Katie and the others when they come home after school.
|Setting off for another walk|
So, it isn’t anything really major, just a combination of factors pulling me in different directions and making me unsettled and unsure about what I should be doing with myself. In a wee while, I’m pretty sure, it will all seem fairly minor and I’ll wonder what I was so stressed about (at least I hope so!).
Having said all that we had a lovely time over the February half-term. We spent a few nights at my parents’ house (they are still away). It is so relaxing there, mum and dad have a range of jackets, wellies, bikes etc for the children to use so that we can just turn up without too much planning (well, with a baby and three children plus dogs – not to mention the cats and rabbit that are left at home – there’s always a fair bit of planning involved in going away but going to their house involves less than going most places!). And it is such a wonderful place especially when the sun is out and we can just enjoy pottering around outside.
And here’s the cheeky little sleep-monkey enjoying her first taste of baby rice. She thinks it is yummy. I was a little uncertain about starting her as she’s just 5 1/2 months but I think she was ready. I’m keen to get her feeding well so I can go away overnight in mid-March. If she’s eating confidently I don’t need to worry so much about whether she’ll take her milk from a bottle for the 24 hours I am away – John can just shovel her full of food instead, not ideal but okay for a short period. Hopefully they’ll both be okay!
Sorry about my rather gloomy post I don’t normally like to moan too much on here but, just now, it really feels like the thing to do. So, sorry, to all you poor people who are having to read me off-loading my grumbles .